The Winds of Change

     This year was nothing like I predicted. Serves me right for predicting in the first place, I guess. 2012 has been a year of fallen predictions, if you really think about it. I may not have attempted to predict the worlds end, but in any case, my expectations lie right with those—

       I have spent the better part of the year wallowing in my sorrows, complaining about the lack of anything good in the year of 2012, and throwing myself countless pity parties. It may not have always looked like it to everyone else, but inside I was dying. This was a tough year. A really really tough one. And while no one else may admit it, I let people and myself down by letting the worries of the year get to me. I let myself become someone I never wanted to be... even if only for a moment. I was much weaker than I should have been, more full of complaints and bad attitudes and distain for the world around me. That’s not someone I want to be. Even if no one could see it. Even if it was for a few hours. Even if it was “for good reason”. I don’t want to be the same person I was this year. I want to change, I want to grow. I want to be different.

       Although this year has been incredibly challenging, it had its moments of loveliness. I have learned a lot this year. I think I gained a lot of insight and life experiences. I still hate change all the same, but with it I have learned a lot. Through a lot of the trials and hardships, I have also been shown an overwhelming amount of love and support from a small group of amazing friends that I have. This year, more than any has shown me how lucky I am to have a core group of amazing friends who are like family. I have been so blessed with the friendships I keep.

       So here is to the lessons learned, courses traveled, changes, experiences and everything in between that made 2012 one of the craziest years I think I will ever experience. Here’s to the challenges that will help shape me into a stronger, well balanced person. Here is to the beautiful moments 2012 had to offer.

 

Thanks to anyone who stuck with me this year, through this blog. It’s been my saving grace at moments. It's time to embrace the winds of change, See you in 2013

 

<3 Choygirl